I knew I was to write. Going to Los Angeles to follow an age old dream of becoming an actor. I wanted to write to flavor the memory of long forgotten memories.

Chapter 1
Chapter 1: The Beginning Part 1 – The Dream of Acting
The various posts you will see are mostly from right before going to Los Angeles and during the period there. You will see my journey as it progresses.
Chapter 1: The Beginning Part 2
Sunday, January 12, 2003 9:35 PM It has been a while since I sent out a message to a group of people I feel connected with in one way or…
Chapter 1: The Beginning Part 3
6 February 2003 The last month has been very intensive as I have been going through much fear and control issues. I try to control the changes but I know…
Chapter 1: The Beginning Part 4
Saturday, February 15, 2003 6:19 PM Journal Update: 3 days until departure I am three days away from beginning a new chapter in my life. I feel like I am somewhere…
Chapter 2
Chapter 2: LA part 1 – The First Few Days
The first few days in Los Angeles ………filled with confusion, not knowing how to proceed thinking that they way forward would magically appear with softness and sturdiness. That was really…
Chapter 2: LA part 2 – Dare Devil
Monday 24 of February Getting to know Los Angeles. I drove around much of the day getting to know various areas of western Los Angeles. Culver City south of Hollywood…
Chapter 2: LA part 3 – Bill the White Bearded Man
Tuesday 25 of February I had a feeling I needed to stay longer at the same hotel I checked into last night, so I decided to stay another night. I walked…
Chapter 2: LA part 4 – Floating seagulls
I drove around and came across the American Academy of Dramatic Arts and dropped by to ask some questions. It is a 2 year school for people interested in acting…
Chapter 2: LA part 5 – The Frustration
28th of February I read some more this morning at the hotel in The Urantia Book a book about universal wisdom. It is kinda funny as I write this now…
Chapter 2: LA part 6 – The Exhibit
Saturday 1st March 2003 The Raven I have been driving around downtown Los Angeles all day. One difference is that I decided to use the map to guide me, but…
Chapter 2: LA part 7 – Sailor Church in San Pedro
Sunday 2nd March 2003 I had a very good night and felt very strong this morning. I woke up early around 7.30 and got up. I felt ready for whatever…
Chapter 2: LA part 8 – The Reality Show
Monday 3 March 2003 I woke up fairly early and took a quick shower. And headed on out on my way to the Reality Show “Do you want to be…
Chapter 2: LA part 9 – Connecting with Spirit
Monday 3 march 2003 – part 2. Connecting with Spirit There are many homeless as well as people who lack a sense of spirit in this city. The homeless are…
Chapter 2: LA part 10 – The Musical Chicago
Tuesday 4 March 2003 I went to bed last night full of energy, and I had a very peaceful night, so peaceful that I in the morning for a while…
Chapter 2: LA part 11 – The Book Signing
Wednesday 5 March 2003 My day began pretty relaxed. First getting out of the door at 12, hunting for a place to have my lunch. My brother who is in…
Chapter 2: LA part 12 – Writer Symposium
Thursday 6 March 2003 Last night I looked through Backstage West magazine with the thought of finding something that would catch my eye, and two ads did. One from Beverly…
Chapter 2: LA part 13 – Writer Symposium Continues
Saturday 8 March 2003 I had so enjoyed the day at the writer symposium that I decided to take another day.It was being held this day at the Beverly Hills…
Chapter 2: LA part 14 – The Model Agency
Monday 10 March 2003 Continued from the last post… ISM Model Management company I quickly went back to Travel Lodge (the hotel I am staying at) and found some more…
Chapter 2: LA part 15 – Acting Class
Monday 17 March 2003 Continued from the last post… I found a monologue piece the day after at Samuel French, a store for actors. I looked at various monologue books but…
Chapter 2: LA part 16 – The Photo Shoot
Thursday 20th of March Hurray! One month in LA! And it has been quite a month! The Photo shoot War in Iraq sets in for full force. CNN even broadcasted…
Chapter 2: LA part 17 – In Between Moments
Back into today…. Saturday 22nd of March 2003 I spent some time in the Santa Monica area and southward looking for possible places to live. I also spent some time…
Chapter 2: LA part 18 – The Oscar Goes To…
24th of March 2003 The Oscars Award Ceremony I was not able to get myself one of the black background with gold text Oscar ceremony invitations, but I went to…
Chapter 2: LA part 19 – Acting Class
25th of March 2003 Acting class I attended my second acting class this evening. I dropped by Franks Diner on the way and ate dinner, as I paid I chatted…
Chapter 3
Chapter 3: LA part 1 – End of the month
Monday the 31st of March 2003 The end of the month cycle I do now know when I first began to notice mood changes happen to me at the end…
Chapter 3: LA part 2 – Acting Class
Tuesday 1st of April 2003 Acting class It was another fascinating acting class today, and it was interesting to see how various people did the cold reading with a scene…
Chapter 3: LA part 3 – Protesting Life
Protesting Life! (The following part was originally written in Norwegian as I do believe I needed to connect in with my Norwegian roots inside of me. I am translating the…
Chapter 3: LA part 4 – One Week
Tuesday the 8th of April 2003 Acting class What an amazing evening! There were performances of material that we had memorized. Jason and I went last and were Ed and…
Chapter 4
Chapter 4: LA part 1 – There and Back Again
Tuesday the 15th of April 2003 I decided to go home to Minneapolis for a 6 day Easter break to spend time resting and visiting friends. I was a bit…
Chapter 4: LA part 2 – Signing the Contract
Wednesday 23 April 2003 .. continued Signing the Contract At 11am I had an appointment with Susanna at ISM (modeling agency) and showed up 10 minutes early. I spoke with…
Chapter 4: LA part 3 – Being Helpful
Thursday the 24th of April 2003 I went to C&C internet cafe (across the street from the Travel Lodge hotel) where I have been eating breakfest on occasion as well…
Chapter 4: LA part 4 – 8 Minute Dating
Sunday the 27th of April 2003 I drove up in the Hollywood Hills to look at rental places. I stopped in a neighboorhood and took a picture of the Hollywood…
Chapter 4: LA part 5 – About Me
Friday the 2nd of May 2003 Kinkos I helped Melvin create a resume on the computer so that he could send out letters to casting agencies and TV stations with…
Chapter 4: LA part 7 – Busy Busy
Monday the 5th of May 2003 Being an extra on set the day before was a real inspiration booster! I went through LA weekly magazine/newspaper and found a few ads…
Chapter 4: LA part 8 – Curb your Enthusiasm
Friday the 10th of May 2003 Curb your Enthusiasm The day before (Thursday) Melvin “pushed” me into getting some new suits, and I went along with it slowly realizing that…
Chapter 5
Chapter 5: LA part 1 – Moving Forward
Sunday 11 May 2003 A very early Mothers Day I find it interesting the experiences life gives me. Moving to Los Angeles to become an actor and model has been…
Chapter 5: LA part 3 – A New Home
(From earlier post Sunday 11th of May 2003) I have up to this point received two replies from my post on Craigslist, one from a girl moving out of a…
Chapter 5: LA part 2 – ISM Disappoints
Wednesday the 14th of May 2003 The Casting Director session I attended a “class” session at ISM where two Casting Directors came in to hold a session. I skipped Tuesdays…
Chapter 5: LA part 4 – Auditions
Monday the 19th of May 2003 ISM (Is Slow Management?) It was over three weeks ago that I signed the 6 months contract with ISM the modeling and everything else…
Chapter 5: LA part 5 – Photo Session and the Audition
Wednesday the 21st of May 2003 The in between moments Yesterday I began to meditate again. Bascially sitting in a chair with my back straight letting myself think of nothing.…
Chapter 5: LA part 6 – Santa Monica
Monday the 26th of May 2003 My New Home! This is the day I move into my first apartment! I will be living in Santa Monica in a real nice…
Chapter 5: LA part 7 – There’s Gotta Be More to Life
This post begins with the Music Video. There’s Gotta Be More to Life Music Video with Stacie Orrico. Look below to read about my experience on set. The end of something…
Chapter 5: LA part 8 – MTV Burnt part 1 Rehearsal
Thursday the 5th of June 2003 Feeling alive! Plugged in and energized! MTV Reality show Burnt – Part 1 The Rehearsal – I felt so alive this morning as if…
Chapter 5: LA part 9 – Lost Focus part 1 Bar Scene
Sunday 8th of June 2003 Lost Focus, the name of an Independent movie written, produced and directed by Sanford Fleishman. Has en entry at IMDB (Image Movie Database) where I am also…
Chapter 5: LA part 10 – MTV Burnt part 2 Live
Monday 9th of June 2003 I drove to LA Center Studios to meet the others from the MTV Reality show “Burnt.” MTV has multiple offices at this location and the…
Chapter 5: LA part 11 – Lost Focus part 2 Waiter
Tuesday 10th of June The alarm went off at 7am, and I took a shower and went outside to look for crew people. One of the crew guys drove a…
Chapter 5: LA part 12 – Starsky & Hutch
For two days I was a part of a bigger Bat Mitzvah scene in Starsky & Hutch. Tuesday 10th of June On the way back to Santa Monica I almost…
Chapter 5: LA part 13 – Sucker Free City
Sunday the 15th of June 2003 Sucker Free City I came home around 9.30pm and checked the Extras Casting Guild and noticed that Monica Cooper had placed a Rush Call…
Chapter 5: LA part 14 – American Wedding
American Wedding Sometime in June of 2003. the third movie in the American Pie series by Universal Studios. I walked in the background in a hotel scene where the dad…
Chapter 6
Chapter 6: LA part 1 – Spiritual Matters
Wednesday the 18th of June 2003 Connecting with Hope I checked Craigslist again. This time I looked in the room mate section and came across a message from a girl…
Chapter 6: LA part 2 – Blind Date Show
Thursday the 26th of June 2003 The Blind Date – dating show I had an appointment at 5pm today at 5700 Wilshire in the same building were Variety Fair the…
Chapter 6: The Spiritual Journey part 1
What follows are events over a period of time in relation to the Amma Retreat.To read more about Amma go to www.amma.org My spiritual journey As it happened over a…
Chapter 6: The Spiritual Journey part 2
My spiritual journey As it happened over a few weeks. Part 2 – The Amma Retreat In Santa Fe Monday the 30th of June 2003 New Mexico Mikayla and I…
Chapter 7
Chapter 7: LA part 1 – 21 Grams
Sunday the 12th of July 2003 I drove south to Sand Pedro to attend the Norwegian service at the Sailor church. I had not planned on going there but that…
Chapter 7: LA part 2 – Slower Pace
Wednesday 16 July 2003 I woke up in the same depressing mood as I went to bed with, and as I was thinking about dreams during the night while eating…
Chapter 7: LA part 3 – Rest
Friday 18th of July. My dad’s birthday! Happy birthday dad!A day of restless resting. Saturday 19th and Sunday 20th.Rest. Monday 21st.I attended the Simpsons “Conversations” hosted by SAG (Screen Actors…
Chapter 8
Chapter 8: Minneapolis
Saturday 26th of July.I had left Los Angeles on the 25th of July as I felt I needed to go home and pickup my car. (I had been renting a…
Chapter 9
Chapter 9: LA part 1 – Back to Los Angeles
Thursday 2nd of October 2003.I returned to the apartment I share with Christine and Len in Santa Monica at 10pm. Christine was happy to see me, while Len as always…
Chapter 9: LA part 2 – The Movie Taxi
Monday 27th of October 2003.I called the Jeff Olan hotline at 5 pm and heard over the hotline that they had work on a movie called Taxi, so I called…
Chapter 9: LA part 3 – Journal Entry
Tuesday 4th of November 2003.The following is from a journal entry I wrote that I called “Going through Emotional Turmoil.” Strong emotions can be very hard to handle many times.…
CHAPTER 9: LA part 4 – Lemony Snicket
Thursday 6th of November 2003.I went to the fitting for Lemony Snicket (not Lemony Snake) a movie with Jim Carrey and Meryl Streep. A Victorian/modern movie whatever that is meant…
Chapter 9: LA part 5 – The Screening of 21 Grams
Friday 7th of November.I was supposed to have brought Tess with me to the screening for 21 Grams but I know we both need time away from each other so…
Chapter 9: LA part 6 – Dream
Monday 10th of November 2003.I have been feisty these last few days having so much more energy inside not knowing where to direct it. I become a whirlpool of energy…
CHAPTER 9: LA part 7 – The End is Near
Tuesday 18th of November 2003.As I sit here in a living room filled with chaos of Christine’s boxes and furniture. I helped her move her stuff out of storage yesterday…
CHAPTER 9: Last part – A White Christmas
Going back to Minneapolis. Saturday the 20th December 2003.I left Los Angeles at 5am and was quickly on my way heading back to Minneapolis. I drove all day until late…