30 October 2003
On Monday at 5pm I called the Jeff Olan hotline and heard they needed people for a movie called Taxi. I called and left a message and Jeff Olan called me back less than a half hour later. I was to become an Informant and he gave me another number to check after 7pm. I called the number and received my call time (meeting time) and directions to Downey Studios where the filming of a New York Precinct during the fall was to take place.
I arrived at 6.15am, 45 minutes early. I had some breakfast and as the check in began I went into line to get my work voucher which is always filled out with name, address, phone number, social security so that I can get paid. I spoke with the blond girl in front of me. I heard an accent and asked where she was from, and her reply made me grin. “I am from Norway,” she said. So we spent time together during the day to get to know each other. I reminded her on occasion that she could speak in Norwegian to me as she over and over again forgot.
The first scene
For the first scene I was dressed in a layered look, leather coat, blue sweat shirt green Hawaiian style t-shirt as an informant and I sat in an office chair in the busy precinct next to a heavy black guy playing a FBI agent. The scene started with the main lead walking right by me, so the camera began with me and the FBI agent in focus and the main lead walking from outside camera range passing in front of the camera having it follow him as he walked into the middle of the room to a desk where the book “Driving for Dummies” lay for him to discover. During another take later he jumped onto the desk yelling something holding the book in his hands. I am guessing that they will probably be using that in the movie.
The Divine mirror
There was a lot of waiting as the film crew recorded other scenes where we were not needed. Lunch came and we went to the lunch “wagon” outside next to a huge white tent. I like to connect with the eyes of whomever is around me, as I look into their presence, sometimes I connect many times the person will just not be at home in their self so the connection does not happen. Or so it feels to me. It is very seldom that I meet someone who I realize is a mirror of myself and the connection I feel to the divine, God, source. I had noticed him earlier in the day. This time the black him in his fifties stood in front of me in the food line. I could feel the deep presence I know so very well. Which I have felt all my life here on this planet and probably before that as well. Our eyes met, and we did not speak any verbal words at that moment. I went and sat down, and he came over. Kenneth knew that he was to sit by me, he told me. We sat and ate our lunch together. Kenneth gave me a few reminders.
et go of any fear that you hold. Stay in God´s power and let it shine through you. You need the power for you he told me. Yes you can also share it with others but the power is yours for you. To feel the power that is in me and by doing so it will affect everyone that is around. Don´t focus on giving the power away but to stay in it for you. I talked about how afraid I was to take the next step in acting by having a more prominent presence in front of the camera. He told me not to be afraid for everything is fine. He said other things as well, things I needed to be reminded about.
Our path had crossed earlier in the day and our eyes met, and as he said “we both knew.”
We both enjoyed the connection. I felt that we both had the same sensation of mirroring each others connection to the divine.
Scene after lunch
For the scene after lunch we changed our wardrobe and I went and received a stripped white and grey rough shirt. I dropped by wardrobe again and they loaned me a blue vest that fit in nicely with the stripped shirt.
I became an undercover Narcotics officer this time, and was instructed to walk across the room to create a sense of a working precinct. The crew wanted me to stand out, actually just do the job they asked of me, but I was afraid to, and instead of walking in front of the camera I walked behind it. As one guy said, there is not purpose in walking behind the camera the audience will not see that. In the next take I walked in front. During the scene I walked from my corner office to the first desk and briefly talked with two girls, and then moving to the middle of the room looking in a pile of papers as if trying to find something I needed. I then continued to walk over to the corner and looked into a folder on the wall. A moment later I walked slowly back in a different route to my office. The focus of the scene was in a corner office with windows, so we are a part of the busy precinct background.
31th of October
I connected with Kenneth again and we sat and spoke in between takes. Kenneth works within makeup and we sat in the makeup chairs and talked. Another guy on the set walked around and took some pictures came over to Kenneth and I and asked if it was alright for us if he took a picture of us. That was fine by Kenneth and me. It was a polaroid camera so we got to see the picture right away. I let Kenneth keep the picture of the two of us. Two beings connected with source sitting in two makeup chairs beside a stage made for the movie Taxi. It was a great day! I connected as often I could with Kenneth. At the end of the day I was not able to say good bye since when I left Kenneth was not in the area. It is a powerful thing when one meets somebody that mirrors back the most profound aspect of oneself as Kenneth did with me! Thank you God!
Earlier on the same day I also talked with Tone, the Norwegian girl telling her that I hope that I would be able to go to the premiere of 21 Grams since I had worked on it as a photo double for Sean Penn. She asked me if I had contact information for them and I said no. It seemed like going to the premiere was out. Later in the evening I dropped by Kinkoes to check my e-mail and met Scott a friend of Christine (she rents out a room in her apartment to me) who I have been getting to know better as well. I noticed an e-mail from SAG Conversations. They send out e-mails for various events that they hold. Some events are for movie screenings that have been or will be released, and others are lectures with actors. One of the movies listed in the e-mail was 21 Grams. On 7th of November SAG will screen the movie (show the movie) and have a Q&A afterward with various people from in front and behind the camera. Perhaps I myself will be able to say a few things about my own experiences working on the movie. I was full of excitement after having seen the e-mail. I suddenly had the chance to go to another kind of premiere of 21 Grams!